why i'm i writing this? like anyone cares...  

WHAT I REALIZED TODAY

1) someone really close to me keeps saying that i mean so much to them but i dont know... i feel like im a worthless peice of shit to them and im only in their lives to pass their time. why would i think that ? hmmm...maybe becasue they were never there for me?!

2) no matter how many friends you have youll always be alone. (im talking about myself btw  )

3) theres a very special person in my life and i didnt realize how special and important they are to me untill this day.

4) some ppl prefer cds and props over their friends! (thats also about me.....)

5) one of my friends is now...not one of my friends! becasue she found WAY MORE COOLER FRIENDS . pshh... to hell with her and all her friends.

6) ive always been shy and quiet but thats gonna chnage , starting from now. thanx to my mom :)

7) i now love a band i hated before...ugh im ashamed to even say their name cus i always make fun of them XD but i love them now...one of my favorite bands  :) yea i realized that today.

8) im amazing...becasue i kept a HUGE, DARK secret and i normally cant keep things to myself . (not that i tell my friends secrets.. no, i meant my own secrets)

9) i need to be in a band...... I HAVE TO BE IN A BAND. i dont care...ill even be the banjo player.....

10) only one person understands me........

i normally dont bitch in jounals but umm...yah

peace , love and rockn roll :)

1) My Parents Are divorced and i live with my mom (wow what a nice intoduction lol)

2) Ive been told that im Obssesed/impatient/dirty minded/sarcastic. and guess what? ITS ALL TRUE!

3) glasses are a really huge to turn on to me. i even like the round ones...

4) My natural hair color is black but i really wanna go blond

5) I hate some words and sentences like : Emo , Get a life , Good , Moore , RockStar (u cant call sumone a rock star becasue that shit died in the 80s!)

6) i dont have any peircings...not even on my ear , i tookem all off! and i wanna peirce my nose cus i wana look like adam lazzara :)

7) I always end up loving something/someone i used to hate (nooooooooooo i dont wanna end up loving From First To Last)

8) I tend to copy and sumtimes act like my idols (the singers i like)! .... sad isnt it?

9) i like to claim that im adam lazzaras wife ...becasue i am!

10) I have a homosexual crush on vicky.T from Cobra Starship ( but im not... i repeat NOT a dike)

11) I get REALLLLLY hyper sumtimes (when im not on pills!) ..A.D.D!

12) Whenever i stay at my cousins room (shes also my BFF) her dad always have to kick me out due to my strange behaviour.

13) geeks , nerds and losers are my type! :) and also bass players...I LOVE BASS PLAYERS! i know ill sound like a teeny but THEY ALWAYS LOOK SO FREAKIN SEXY NO MATTER HOW MEAN OR UGLY THEY ARE!!

14) i mostly impress the people i hate which is weird.

15) i hate my cousins (who doesnt?) theyll piss you off even if you just looked at them THEYRE SHIT TALKERS AND JUST PLAIN BITCHWHORES...period..

16) i hate to be called a woman..im only 16 for god sakes...im just...a girl!

17) i get mad if someone liked the same band as me.

18) i think braces are cool and i think of getting one (my teeth are ok though)

19)my bangs get automaticly spiked when i wake up in the morning (shakoo?)

20) im soooooooooo scared of : Veins , him from power puff girls and matt good from the band from first to last .

21) Matt rubano hight is 54....AND SO IM I!

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yah theyre supposed to be 30 facts but..umm ..yah

here we go :

9) Miley or whatever her name is!

0_o

8) Robbie Wiliams

what the hell...?! he's gay. thank god he's wearing glasses!!!!

7) M.Shadows

 i hate his voice!!!

6) kiresten dunst

i just hate her!!!!

5) Sean Paul

'it's da sean paul' .. what the f...?

misery greeted me with a smile

i swear i saw what it looks like right inront o me in the mirror , she was talking and i was the only one who can hear her , she looked more like me only with alot of friends 

please , somebody take me home ... cus these voices think i'm insaine

misery loves company well it adores me so ... my face says "i'm pretty happy about it" when it's actually saying "i'm in pain"

oh look! a shining star in the sky , i'll make a wish upon you : fall ,  crush me , make me die , once upon a time a little girl was  full of hate , descrase and bad luck , wanted to make help the world but the world didn't give a fuck 

so somebody please take me home , i wanna fly there

angels will help me , but i heard that they're drag me home by my hair

i'll never find my way home :(

ok choose ur favorite ronnie :

1) Ronnie Winter from The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus :

2) Ronnie Radke from Escape The Fate :

3) Ronnie Vanucci from The Killers :

yeah thats it ; i'm curious..i wanna know what ronnie will u guys choose!!!

rules:

1) you must post a list of ten things you want for christmas.

2) they must be writen in the order you want  to get them.

3) at last you must tag ten friends.

here we go :

10) i want william's red glasses (and also him!)

9) this bass guitar (yeah i always wanted a fender or whatever they call it! and esp black and white)

8) a kiss from (A) *sigh* (btw thats the name of the dude i like :D but i cant write his name cus he might look at this page )

7) the limited edition "santi" ..... man i would love to hang that poster on my door and look at it whenever i want :)

6) a nice hair cut

5)a house in chicago =D

4) i am ghost's cd .... since that i cant order it :(

3) TAI hoodies :)

2) this boy

1) the academy is ... concert ticket !!

i hope i get them all on christmas ( i know i wont) ... its ok i just want william .. just him !

ok here we go :-

1) she blinks her eyes twice and does that weird thing with her tounge when someone makes fun of her

2) she once kicked a dude in a sensetive area...and he was twice her age and he was more taller than her and fatter , and she's so skinny ! yep...thats my hommie =)

3) she likes wearing my sister's heels !!

4) a girl named sara is crazy about her ! hahahaha poor shahood hates her guts :)

5) she thinks ryan ross looks like a squirl!

6) she wants to be a model and a guitarist .......i know ...thats weird!

7) she thinks EVEYONE is bi sexual ! even me *rolles eyes*

8) she hates her dad (shahood u said it was ok to write that ..right?!)

9) she used to love jesse mcartney *holdes laugh*

10) she once pulled me from my hair and hit my head against a window (thats how we joke)